- Peek-A-Boo, Surprised? So did i. Heheh
Wait. Why would i be surprised? Trololol.
Crazy siaaa me. Okay Rayyan. Stop. :B
Lalalalalal. Elmo's World. Kay. Lame. Whatever.
Haaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah.
Anyway its 10.52 am now. Not sure wheres baby at.
Maybe she`s still sleeping kot.
or maybe she`s mad at me since yesterday :/
Heh.
Well here`s an update.
Me and her hasnt been talking alot recently.
Due to me working. and her, risking her phone, as her phone is,
by right being confiscated by her mum. So whenever we do get to talk, she would always reply me short messages. Wait. Its not always. Its just most of the time. So yeah.
I kinda blame her yesterday. and that made her guilty.
Gosh. Why am i stupid? im a senseless stupidical(not sure whether theres such a word) selfish pick of jerk. You know why? Its because yesterday while i was about to sleep, i realised, isnt all this because of me?
Eversince her parents found out about me. Her parents, has started to like "Controlled" her i guess in that sense of way. I mean , like, her parents now restrict her from going out, even going roller-blading alone is a no-no for them. Im also the reason why her phone got confiscated . and also why her facebook is always kinda dead, as she no longer use her facebook due to her dad knowing her username and her password.
Anyway i think this all started around Mid-Nov if im not wrong.
"Baby, im sorry for everything. Sorry for the troubles i have caused to you. Sorry to blamed you yesterday.
I realised now, all these happened because of me not you. So im the one who`s guilty. I know, by saying sorry it can`t changed anything, as im preety sure, right now, you are mad at me. But i promied i will make it up to you when we meet again. Please Baby. Dont think you are guilty :/ Heh. i guess i deserve it as you are ignoring me now , i presume. please baby, talk to me soon. its killing me inside like seriously. heh:( "
God, if you can hear me, please, please i beg you. Dont make our r/s deteriorating. I dont wanna lose her.
I want her. Please. She`s the best i ever had. She understands me fully and she has never failed to be there by my side when i need her. She accept me for who i am, despite my flaws and habits. She was willing to wait for me when we went like almost 2 months not talking to each there due to my phone getting confiscated (for some reasons).so please god, i beg you. :`( She`s my everything. Dont take her from me. Please.
Heh. i got this to think about and my N level resuls which is prolly coming out around 16-20 Dec. i wanna go sec 5. Not ITE. But somehow i have a bad feeling about it. Heh. i probably fail my art . come on. i can draw and copy and imagine. but when it comes to colours, its like, people use the 'soft' type of colors while i used lik the colours at th disco. Neon green. Bright Yellow. Pinkkish Red etc. Yes . Those kind of colours. and talking about colours. I cant even pain. Cant even hold the paint brush right nor apply fading/shadows in colours. Heh. Screw you painting. why cant art be black and white. The law is even black and white.
Klah. rayyan stop. Don think Negative. Maybe the examiners appreciate the art you do. who know maybe even art is moderated.
well got to go now.
Work starting at 3. so gotta get ready, buy breakfast and hopefully baby will text me. :(
i still love her. more than the love i had for her when i first fell in love with her. Wait. how can i know which one is more.
Love cannot be measured not weight.But i dont care.
I love her. and ONLY her.
rayyan.
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