Wazzzup ~! It's 10.10pm nowww, and my brain's dead on what to blog. Hahah. Its mah second post fer da weeek and, well, imma still trying to get used to it. hehehe. Actually, i deleted the prev post which i wanna blog,, cuz it sucks. Hmm,, so, i decided to make a new oneee. But i dunno what to write about. So,, baby said that i could blog about what's on my mind now, but that time, my mind is blank. Now that i'm whatsapp-ing him,, there's one thing in my mind :) How much i love him. I know that i always says that i love him and may sound clinche but whenever i say the word 'i love you' , it always came from mah heart. To me,, those words are just so powerful and meaningful to me. 8 letters, 3 words. So few, but it hid alot of meanings. Whenever he asked me how much i loved him, i always had difficulty answering him. That's because i couldn't form the words. I've tried my best to find those words,, but with no avail. I wish he could feel how much i love him. Okay, truthfully said, whenever i look at him, it will turn into a stare. That's why i don't dare to look at him in school. Not really. And i will try to avoid him. Well, kinda. Anywayy,, if i bumped into him in school, i'll blush. And another reason is that Claire, Lisa and the others will kind of 'tease' me , y'knowww.. Hate to admit this. But i sometimes will secretly tend to look at him, when he's not lookking or even when other's are not looking, and will blush. Hahaha. When i look at him, different thoughts are racing in my mind. For example, how could a guy like him fell in love with a noob like me? There's more other better fishes out there, in the ocean. If i never met him today, would i meet him in the future, perharps? I think only fate/destiny could answer that. He made me fell in love with him more, as each day passes. I may sound too greedy but i want him to myself. I only want him to belong to me, and not to other people. I dun wanna part from him. I can't bear the thougth of losing him. I want to cling to him and be by his side, no matter whatever obstacle that arises. He made my heart race whenever i saw him in school or even bump into him. LOL. And whenever we argue/fight, i'm always afraid he'll leave me and we're part. Afraid that he couldn't take my bullshits anymore and decided to end it. End everything. I dunno how i could move on and live my life without him by my side. Maybe i could move on, Maybe i couldn't. Even if i could, that's probably gonna take years. If i couldn't, i'll be stuck in the past, when everybody's already in the present. [If you know what i meant]. I know people say that fights made couples stronger. But there's a limit to that, right? -sigh- but right now, all i want now is to love each other and only death could tear us apart ~
Anywayy,, shouldn't blog too much. Ayah asked me to off the comp nowwwww. shoooo,, Goodnightszxc ~ !
P.s Baby,, most things are repeated and sorry fer that yeaaaaa. heh.
-FINAAAAA- >.<
screw.yu| 08:03