- Hey Guys.
Rayyan here.
Anyway cut to the chase. Me and Fina hasnt been really well , as in in relationship and communications term and not based on health or whats so ever.
So if you guys dont mind, i would like to write a letter to Fina here. Thank you very much.
" Hi Baby,
I know this past few days, things are really going hard on us. We had like alot of arguments like almost every day now, and today i guess, was the worst.Baby, i dont know why are there arguments. I know we are currently stressed up and stuff like that, and yes, we do get easily paranoid baby over little things. Or is it just me?
Anyway Baby, i am sorry cause i have been doubting eversince this whole sage started. It all started yesterday. remember, you went home straight away without informing me?and you told me you needed time alone but never tell me why. and today you did two oddly(in my opinion) things which was:
1) You told me not to text you.
2) Afterschool, you act like as tho, i am not there, and furthermore, you went home alone. And didnt want me to accompany you again.
So yeah. i been thinking uh baby. Is there something you are hiding from me? Is it, because you hiding a secret boyfriend or something, cause baby, you damn well, know, i dont like people to hide things from me right. Okay, its not i dont like. Its i DESPISE. yes thats the word.
Baby, you always say you miss me, but have you ever once ask me, whether are we meeting or not because baby, when people miss each other, he/she will make an effort to see or meet the person that he/she misses. get what i meant? i meant like how, you miss Kak Sheela and you really Badly wanna meet her. So have you ask me before? Well, i dont know whether you are shy or what. But seriously baby, today, your actions really made me think. Think Hardly. whether do you really meant what you said. about you missing me and all.
I know. I am someone who dont likes when things go my way, but if there`s anythings wrong or what you are uncomfortable of, you could have at least told me right. Told you countless times, No matter How much you change or how bad you treat me. i will still hold on to you as long as your heart wants me to. if not, then basically its useless if you have changed your feelings of me.
For this, im sorry. Im sorry for being a useless boyfriend, who can never be there for you. Who can never cheer you up. Who can never gave you what you ever wanted. But, baby, im trying my best here. i swear. like how i tried my best to get Sapphy for you. i never really told you right, that i actually took sapphy from a small girl , who went crying after that, cause sapphy was the last light blue carebear.and you told me, you wanted it for years.
Did I? but its okay baby. Didnt really wanna tell you cause later you will make a big fuss out of it.
I am sorry baby, if i failed. Baby, you are the type of girl, who are smart, cute, beautiful, funny and at times can be abit adorable with those puppy dog eyes.You are like every mans dream girl. and Baby, Stop denying. How many boys have ask you to be their girlfriend regardless whether is the boy hot or not.But still , baby, deep down inside. You are like a volcano. People can see signs of it. But you dont really show it. Cause you never really share.I as your boyfriend, dont even know what is going on with his baby, these few days, but i bet, your other bestfriends like lini or claire knows right? Maybe they are way important than me.
No. Im not saying your fault. i know you girls are bonded , for four years now. while i and you, just 10 months or so. SO yeah. I understand. But at least you could do is inform me. And your excuse would be like, " Noo ,i dont want you get worried" Baby, how can I NOT get worried, if you Dont tell me? Heh. You think by not telling is better than telling? so what is worse than knowing than not knowin. so lets say if i know, i will get hard attack eh? *touch wood* No right.
Told you, we go through thick and thin together. Hand in Hand. Why cant you for once trust me? as your boyfriend, your friend, your advisor, Your Uncle, Your penguin and so forth? Hmm.
I just gonna close this letter with this.
what ever it is baby, i still love you. and i will still stick by your side no matter what. Just trust me , is all i ask from you. Is that so hard to do?
P.s: sorry if i sound harsh.Im just letting all my thoughts onto here. and no, im not crying. Okaylaa. abit. heh.
love you always,
Rayyan.
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